Suspended and hanging
Life grinding to a halt
Who have I become
Where has "me" gone

Sometimes I wonder
Has the chaos engulfed my world
Making it constantly churn
Barely keeping afloat

How do I leap again?
What has become of my joy?
From whence does my help come?
What am I living for?

Questions echo in my soul.
Reverberating on deaf ears
Vanity, all vanity
Is this all there is?

I am so consumed by ME...
My walls of self have caved in.
Direct my eyes toward YOU,
So I can LIVE again.

Restore to me the passion
Breathe into me once more
Fan the flickering flame to be
A raging fire for YOU!

Dana Calit
08-15-08

The saga continues of my divine discontentment...

I don't exactly remember when I wrote this or what the motivation was behind it but I know I was on the plane when I did it... Maybe it was a movie I saw. Oh well. After checking my blackberry notes and seeing this, I thought it was funny so I decided to post here

If I were to expire in a minute or two
I wonder what I would do
Would I sing a note
Or speak me a quote

How would it feel
Perhaps so surreal
To be confronted with death
And breathe my last breath

Mortality knocks at my door
Does it keep score
I think maybe so
But how would I know

Of course unless
I actually say yes
But for today
I'd just prefer nay

And with living proceed
And postpone it indeed
My curiosity abated
Until I'm finally sedated.

-Dana Calit

MORE THAN JUST THE YOU I SEEK

I want to know you
Every inch of who you are
Not just what I hope you to be

I want to know you
Every bit of your majesty
Not just what I think you should be

I want to know you
Every part of your glory
Not just what I can see

Show me all of you
Heighten my perception
Show me all of you
Beyond just intuition

Give me all you've got
Not just what I want
Give me all you've got
Past the couldn't and can't

I don't want to live my life
With just a little peek
I want to really find
More than just the you I seek

Take away the cares of my universe
Allow me to feel your heart
So I won't have to ever wonder
Just tell me where to start

I lug my baggage on this journey
But you say "leave it behind...
Do not be conformed to this world
But be renewed in my mind"

Fill my cup to overflowing
With the living waters that heal
Fill my table with the bread of life
That satisfying meal

Open my ears to hear
Open my eyes to see
Let this be my prayer
More of you and less of me

-Dana Calit
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Lord, refresh me. Fill me to overflowing so I can continue to give... In spite of the pressures at work, yes I declare "I'm too blessed to be stressed!"